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Two Years is Long Enough

Two Years is Long Enough

Red Oak Creek Bridge

A Two Year Journey

It has been almost two years since we moved from California. I think that is plenty long enough.

Long enough to adjust and adapt to life in Georgia. Long enough to make new friends, find a church, and feel like we belong.

It is also long enough to be unfocused and wondering what I am going to do in this chapter of life.

I took a little longer than planned to get to this point, but I’m here now, and ready to press on.

It has occurred to me that I need to stop seeking the end and focus on the beginning. In other words, stop waiting for a voice from above and just get started on all the things I have waited to be called to.

Keep reading. It will either become clear, or get muddy as hell.

What if the question we’ve been asking ourselves, the question I’ve been asking myself, is wrong?

A verse from the Bible (James 4:3) showed up in something I was reading last week.

You ask and do not receive, because you ask with wrong motives, so that you may spend it on your pleasures.

It got me thinking. What if the question I’ve been asking myself is wrong?

What if the question is not, “what motivates me,” rather, “what is the motivation.”

Yes, I know, the difference is subtle. Let me explain my thinking.

“What motivates ME,” emphasizes self. It focuses on what I need to be motivated in order to do that to which I have been called. It assumes a reward or incentive (“the pleasures”) I gain from reaching the goal.

“What is THE MOTIVATION,” emphasizes something outside of self. It focuses on the motivator; the one who motivates me to “press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus”. (Philippians 3:14) My focus is no longer on the earthly reward. The motivation is the heavenly call.

Like I said. Subtle. Yet significant.

A James 4:3 revelation

So here I am, two years down the road, wondering when the Lord is going to let me know what He has for me. All along I’ve given it some thought, asked Him to show me, and made some attempts to move things along, but thus far I’m still no closer.

Under my own power I can’t get far. Certainly not far fast.

Then it occurred to me as I read James 4:3. Motive. I am letting the reward motivate me. What I should be doing is letting service to the Lord who called me be the motivation. The upward call.

The result of all this pondering is that I am now pressing on and purposely opening my eyes to opportunities to serve, rather than lead. At some point, as I remain faithful and continue press on with a servant’s heart, He will reveal what He has for me to do. The place where He wants me to lead.

It may be that I’m already doing it after two years of wandering, and just haven’t made the connection.

And so, I press on.


Thanks for staying with me though this post. Not one of my usual post about photographs, but I needed to get this out. Believe it or not, it will have an affect on my photography and everything else I do going forward.

I would like to hear your thoughts. Post them in the comment section below to start a discussion, or you can email me if you would rather have a private conversation.

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